Now, This Is a Love Letter (another letter for my beloved Mamed)

There are some things I cant keep forever.
Some things need to go away. For good or for Bad.

Life is all about losing.
In life, I only get, keep, or lose things.
Getting something is easy. Either I like what I get, or I just get rid of it.
Keeping is a bit harder. it needs effort.
But losing, I have no choice.
I dont really 'lose' something I dont like, if its something I dont like its just gone.
But I lose whatever I love.

It hurts when I lose.
I don't know why, but unconsciously I always keep everything.
Bills, Tickets, cards, wrapping paper, plastics, and all of those unimportant trash that have a story behind it.
Now i realize. I'm afraid to lose things.

But as I say before, life is about losing.
Sooner or later I'll have to deal with it.
Like it or not.

Now you, my friend..
you really are something for me.
And I lose you.
I still dont want to believe you're gone.
I dont want to lose you.

And you've teach me a lesson.
Nothing is forever.
The only thing I can do is to keep every memories.
Keep it well.

And for everything that I still keep, and yet to come, I should treasure it.
I should be thankful for everything I have.. and lose.
That includes myself.
Somehow in your silence, you told me how precious I am to you, and how I should treat myself better.

I know now, all these time you were always there watching my back.
You watch me fall, you watch me cry, you watch me stumble and bleed.
You know really clear and well how messed up I am but still you care. In your own way.

Thank You for being such a friend. I couldn't love you more!
I'm sorry I was too busy with my own frustration that I didn't realize how much you care.

I Promise you I'll be Happy.
I promise I'll be okay and will not do anything silly.
And I promise I will treat myself better.

You'll always be right here in my heart =)