.a.h.o.p.e.a.p.r.o.m.i.s.e.

We need to run away!
From our conscious thoughts that might sever us apart
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We need to go away!
To a place where the fire and the water can mingle
Where the sun and the moon sits side by side
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We need to run fast, faster than time
through the day, hour, minute, and second
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We should be chasing the moments
Those special moments you can’t find anywhere else
Those which are ours. only you and me.
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Don’t you worry
If you want me to stay, I’ll never leave you
It’s what you do to me
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We have to admit, we didn’t know what we’re looking for
You might think you do,
But I know for sure you don’t
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In a glimpse of a moment everything seems perfect
that’s when you sit in the window of my life
But glancing into the future, some things do fade
I am scared. Are you?
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So when your soul embarks, I’ll be holding tight
I’ll wait to listen to your heartbeat, when you hug me tight in the clouds
And our wings would be so strong, the sun wouldn’t even dare to melt us

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When all the road is dark and dreamy

And our nature can’t take it anymore

Promise me that you wouldn’t walk away

.

If you want me to stay

I’ll always be by your side

I miss you = I miss YOU

July 7, 2010, 6:04 am

When I say I miss you, I mean I miss YOU!
When I say I miss you,
I didn’t mean I miss your smell.
I didn’t mean I miss your beautiful eyes.
I didn’t mean I miss playing around with you.
I didn’t mean I miss singing with you.
When I say I miss you, I mean deep, I miss YOU!

My Bitch!

July 2, 2010, 4:42 pm

I want you in my bed
Watch me come closer to you
Than, I’ll ask you,
“Do you want love?”
And before you have a chance to answer,
my lips will be 0.5 cm away from your ear whispering
“Let’s make it!”
And as soon as you get what I mean,
I’ll look you in the eyes
and give you the sweetest evil smile ever!
While you’re still mesmerized by my smile,
I’ll melt your lips in mine.
After that, everything will happen naturally.
And -for the sake of ethic- will be sensor !
*sensor*sensor*sensor*
And then, for the ‘after-talk’,
I’ll show you this writing
and you’ll have to answer this question:
"Do you feel like my bitch right now?"

I Want to Say It All Over Again!

July 2, 2010, 3:40 pm

Do I need to say it again?
I know you get it, but I really want to say it again.
I don’t know why,
You don’t need to ask why.
I just simply want to remind you,
although I know you haven’t forget it
so, let me say it! Again!


I’M IN LOVE WITH YOU !!!!!!

Give Yourself

June 24, 2010, 4:51 pm 

To a love that will embrace you, and to a love that will hurt you.


To a man that will empower you, and to a man that will abandon you.


To a woman that will admire you, and to a woman that will insult you.


To a boy that will look up on you, and to a boy that will ignore you.


To a girl that will like you, and to a girl that will avoid you.


To a lover that will love you, and to a lover that will sleath your heart.


To a stranger that will welcome you, and to a stranger that will harm you.


To life that will give you ecstacy, and to life that will make you suffer.


Give Yourself!

A Golden Hair of a Black Horse

June 16, 2010, 4:20 pm

Thank you for being so beautiful.
Thank you for all the little things you do.
Thank you for being so mysterious.
Thank you for being so simple.
Thank you for ignoring me.
Thank you for always being yourself.
Thank you for letting me love you.
And thank you for being a golden hair of a black horse.

Avrio

Avrio will be the day I die.

Avrio my children will be motherless, and my husband will lose his wife.

Avrio is a big day.

Everyone will be glad.

My husband choose avrio to be the day I go.

Because it’s our anniversary day!

And the children, oh! They have strong hearts!

They succeed assuring my parents several times.

My dad was a hunter.

Since I was a baby, he often leave home for months.

Only my mm and my bigger brother  take care of me.

He went so often that most time I feel like I don’t have a father.

And mom was only human. Not a really strong one, thou.

She cheated on my dad. But I was somehow glad for her.

My brother leave home early.

He hates mom’s boyfriend.

I was only fifteen when my brother leave the house.

I was alone.

Mom have nothing else in mind but her boyfriend.

Dad took longer to go hunting.

He went for six month or more.

And so I hated  my life.

I tried to end it myself several times but they just don’t work.

I never thought I would die this way.

I swear I would laugh really hard if I can.

Remembering how I wanted to die so bad, and now I’m dying and I want to live so bad.

I’ve been told and I know,

It’s only in the last moments of your life you regret that there are so many words unsaid.

So many gifts and smiles are not given.

So many love unshared.

Trust me, this is the worse feeling you would ever feel.

I never tell my parents that I forgive them.

I never tell my brother that I actually cares.

I haven’t tell my husband how much I love him in a long time.

And my children, Dear Lord! They must know I love them so much.

I haven’t always been perfect for them.

As a daughter, a sister, a wife, a mother, I broke their hearts.

I was too proud and ignorance.

But I love them.

I just wish I could once again see them in the eyes and say ‘I love you’

Here I am, in my humblest moment of my life.

I’ve been here for months with the machine working for my body to keep me alive.

This feels ridiculous!

A soul with thoughts and feelings can be sustained by an assembled metal and plastic parts.

As I was thinking, my whole family and best friends come into my room.

My smallest son holds my hand and say:

            “Mommy, I know you are going far away. But Grandpa said, no matter how far you go, you’ll be in my heart. All I need to do is forgive every wrongs you did so I’m here to tell you that I have forgive you and I will miss you. And mommy, I can take a bath by myself already! So you don’t need to worry, oukay!”

There is a rush of peace and release all over my body. It’s a huge relief to know that I am forgiven by the ones I love.

I don’t have much time.

Avrio is my time.

I am ready to go.

Avrio.